19 weeks

I am now at 19 weeks and I have really started to pop out!!! It's amazing what 3 weeks did! We have been busy exploring the Oakland Hills where we are currently living. The two hiking pictures are from a beautiful trail just 5 minutes from our house!
Holiday get togethers have begun and along with our continued house hunt and gearing up for baby, it's a busy time for us!

Week 16 of Prego Life :)

I am now well into my 16th week! I have been feeling great still overall and felt the first distinct kick last week for the first time and many "fluttery" movements since then! Every morning I wake up and remember that I have a little tiny baby growing inside me, I feel like it is a new gift, like Christmas morning, everyday! Tim and I are beyond excited!!! He loves coming home from work and singing to my belli,"Hush little baby don't you cry, Daddy's gonna buy you a nice blue Porche..." LOL (He'd probably die if he sees I wrote about this but oh well! Maybe when he finally discovers it, he'll keep up on my blog more-hee-hee)
The house-hunt continues and we are hoping to find something SOON!!!!

The T&L Love Story :)

T&L in the Fall of 2002


*This was supposed to go in the "about me" section of this blog layout but it was too small to accommodate the length of our journey :) Oh well, here it is...:)

Tim and I met in the fall of 2002 when he moved into my college apartment with my girlfriend and I as our third roommate. We soon became friends but had no romantic interest in each other...at first. As our friendship deepened, we realized we had so much in common for our lives and found ourselves wanting to spend more and more time together. By January of 2003, we had shared our first kiss and began the dating portion of our relationship. We both felt weird about our roommate/dating status and both laughed at how funny it was to meet in our shared living room for date nights. :) So we kept our dating relationship a secret for the next few months until our apartment lease was up and we could get our own separate places which we did in May of 2003 when I also graduated with my BA in Child Development. In January of 2005, Tim took a job with Trihydro as a geologist in Laramie, Wyoming. I was devastated and couldn't imagine how our relationship would work itself out but I knew if it was meant to be it would somehow. I also had never heard of such a place, in Wyoming!!??? I questioned if there was even life out there besides massive amounts of snow and buffalo. :) The year apart was long and cold, even here for me in sunny California. We did have many visits though that kept the spark alive. In February of 2006 in South Lake Tahoe, Tim proposed with the most heartfelt look I'd ever seen in a man's eyes and took my breath away. Later that month he came back to help me pack up my little civic and make the 2 day journey to our new life in Wyoming. I loved our new friends and the change of pace from stressful city life. I felt truly alive for the first time in my entire life. In July of 2006 in Tahoe we were married and continued to live and enjoy our Wyoming life until June of 2007 when we decided to move back to California to be closer to our families. We started off in Irvine per Trihydro's need at the time, then in 6 months moved up to the SF bay area for the opening of the new Trihydro office where Tim would soon be promoted to project manager. :) In August of this year we found out there will soon be a new addition to our family in April and are more excited than ever! We are now looking at buying a house in American
Canyon for our expanding needs!

You Tube

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hjE-QV3SmKM

copy and paste the link into your browser to watch the video of our first ultrasound at 9 weeks. I am now finishing up my 12th week and still doing well!
Enjoy!
T&L

We're Pregnant!!!! Yippie!!!!

So we found out I was pregnant on Aug.5th! Happened on the first try too!!! Amazing! I am now 11 weeks along and couldn't ask for a better pregnancy so far!!! Except for the occasional headaches, insomnia, and food aversions, I have been feeling great! We went for our first sonogram at 9 weeks and saw our little baby and heard the fast little heartbeat too!!! We are soooo excited our baby time is nearing!!!! We've been secretly baby shopping for the past few months and practically have our whole registry picked out already! I finally do not have to hide all my pregnancy books and magazines under the bed anymore! Nope! They are now strewn all over the house in excitement! I've got some fun little preggie helpers too such as Preggie Pops which are the lollypops which help relieve nausea, some Belli Pregnancy face wash which doesn't contain all the harmful chemicals that others do, and the greatest husband ever who brings home PF Chang's, Whole Foods Pizza, and plenty of snacks for my raging appetite! :) Oh and I have already come up with what I think is a brilliant birthing plan. I'm throwing lamaze out the window because simple breathing exercises are NOT going to calm me down for the big event. They simply do not engage your mind and the key to easing my anxiety is through distraction. So as we were on a long drive home the other night I turned up my favorite songs and belted them out as usual. Singing brings me to such a relaxed state that most can only achieve with a dose of Valium. :) So I'm going to try bring in a boom box/cd's/ ipod whatever to my labor/delivery room and singing my little heart out before the big push! I think it will work like a charm. Singing makes me happy and when you are happy you are more relaxed and able to deal with pain better. So that's the plan for now. I'll let ya know how it pans out in real life :) If it does work though, I'll write a book titled, "Singing through the Pain" and start a revolutionary new birthing method guaranteed to make me millions so I can retire by the age of 30! I have it all planned out just you wait!
So on another note, we have decided to stay in the Bay area for the next long while, meaning 5 or more years. As you are well aware, this is not my first choice as I would rather flee to the country, but in my recent pregnant state have drastically changed my viewpoint because this life is not all about me anymore, not even all about us. Now we have our baby to consider and Tim's recent job promotion to Project Manager at Trihydro which is making him a much happier man career-wise. We are now looking at houses to buy in the American Canyon area which is in the North Bay area only 10 minutes from Napa Valley!!! It will be a wonderful place to call home for a while and you couldn't ask for better weather! The landscape is gorgeous, green rolling hills and vineyards and just an hour from the coast. Not too crowded either, Napa has a small town feel and will have a lot of activities year round for us to do!
So I'm excited!
For the time being, we are staying with a friend at his house in the Oakland Hills which is another beautiful area. He has offered to have us here until we find a home for a very generous price on rent so we will be able to save some cash in the next few months! San Francisco is only a 10 minute drive across the bay bridge, Berkeley is very near by too and just 5 minutes drive up the hill from where we live now you can overlook the entire bay and see the Golden Gate bridge. The view is spectacular! There is also a beautiful National Redwood Park 10 minutes from the house with tons of trails overlooking the bay and camping! Who knew there was such natural beauty within this concrete jungle? I am certainly learning to appreciate my surroundings more as we continuously act as explorers of this massive state we grew up in but apparently still have so much more to learn about here!

pictures

myspace.com/LolalovesTimmy

go here, there are a million up of this summer.

Summer '08

We have been having a fun and busy summer, full of decisions about where to settle down and looking for new jobs in 2 different places before making any decisions. We are now considering living in either the Portland, OR area or Sonora, CA which is a small town of about 30,000 peeps in the eastern foothills near the mountains! Tim has been interviewing in Portland and we are waiting to hear back from some companies up there. He also just passed his PG test, (Professional geologist for the state of Ca) which by the way is the hardest one of all. He passed it after only studying for a week, when most study a year for it. Also, only 20% of people pass it their first time. So as you can tell by all my gushing, I am so proud of my genius husband :)
We had a blast at our annual Lake Tahoe vacation with the whole Bishop side of the family as well. Tim finally got his wave-runner that he's been dreaming of forever and we had a blast riding it all around the lake and taking special trips to Emerald Bay for some hiking. We also got a wake-skate, (like a skateboard for the water) and have been learning to use that too! Our cabin is in the coolest location in South Lake Tahoe. It's right on the beach next to Camp Richardson and the Beacon Restaurant which has live music nightly on the beach. It is a beach girl's dream! Plus, tons of cool trails for hiking around the lake and phenomenal views! We love Lake Tahoe! Maybe one day we will retire there and buy a cool cabin on the lake. (Well if we ever have an extra 3 million laying around) :)
So our apartment lease is up here in the bay area in 2 weeks, (thank GOD) so we are moving out this weekend! We decided to do one more temporary move to Turlock where my in-laws live until we figure out where to plant ourselves. Turlock is about an hour and a half commute for Tim to work so he'll rideshare a couple days a week and work the remaining days telecommuting from Turlock. Whew! We will be saving $1600 a month on rent by living with his parents, (Which have a new, separate apartment attached to their ranch home) while we figure out our next move.

Wyoming Re-Cap #3

(written sometime in May 2006)

Small town life

Current mood: happy

My life as a new Wyoming girl is sure different! I can't believe it's been almost 3 months already! I have been more relaxed here than I have ever been. ( Ok so yes, a lot of this has to do with the no job factor ) But even so, from what I see even the workplace is a relaxed environment. Today I was on an interview with the newspaper, LaramieBoomerang.com and almost everyone in the room was wearing jeans and cowboy boots! They were probably impressed at my suit and steve maddens! :)

Everyone here is much nicer too! Neighbors actually cross the street to come meet you and have a chat. Shop owners downtown spend time talking to me when they find out I'm looking for a good job, give me a treasure-map of contacts, and make instant calls to their friends notifying them of my arrival. In my second week here, One of Tim's old neighbors called me to invite me out snowshoeing for the day even though I'd never met her. Another time, one of his co-workers called me when she knew Tim would be gone for the week on business, and invited me out to a girls' night with her and her friends. People really reach out here. They just stop by your house just to visit for a bit. No phone calls, no advance plans, they just show up and keep you company. At first I thought this was a bit weird, but now I realize it's a genuine act of friendship and care. ( Ok and probably a bit of the boredom factor!) :-)

Over all, being here even for this short time has definetly grounded me more. I'm learning to appreciate more outdoor activities rather than spending every weekend at the mall or at a club trying to compete with all the fake people out there. As of right now, I'd take a sweaty hike with my Timmy over a prance around the Galleria anyday! ( Besides, I can always look in my IN STYLE magazine for fashion cravings, but no book or magazine could do justice to seeing Mt. Rushmore in person or top the feeling of accomplishment I got from hiking to the top of a mountain! )

Wyoming Re-Cap #2

I shop at Wal-Mart
Current mood: bored
(written sometime in October of 2006)


I Shop at Wal-Mart :)

Goodbye to the days when Macy's, Nordstrom, GAP, Express, Ulta, and so many other long lost stores were just a 5 minute car ride away. Goodbye to the Clinique bonuses, Jamba Juice, Trader Joe's, Jack's/Pluto's, and even Target. Goodbye to any mall whatsoever! I miss the days of browsing in my favorite stores after work to de-stress. No more Nordstrom customer service policy, ( I was ALWAYS right and could return something after even a YEAR!) No more browsing the make-up counters taking in the rich scent of Vera Wang's newest fragrance. No more listening to the live piano music delicatley playing throughout the store. Now I have Wal-Mart. ONLY Wal-Mart! Not ONE store in this town suitable for buying clothes from this decade! Laramie you need a MAJOR FASHION INTERVENTION!!! My new "mall" is now trusty, DUSTY ol'e Wal-Mart. I can go there 4 times a week and still be excited about it! ( Boredom plays funny tricks on my mind!) I went today just to see if that new lotion is in stock that was featured in my Cosmo magazine. I go just to double-check if they might have a pair of cheap earrings that might jazz up my look. I go to buy seashells for my shadow-box to remind me of the good old summer days on the CA beaches. I'll admit, I've even gone to buy Q-tips, even when we still have half a box left. Shop-A-holic? No, I just have a deep need to see what's new... I've even discovered that the generic Wal-Mart pancake syrup tastes as good as Aunt J's and it's a third of the price. I can go to Wal-Mart for a Optometry apt while Tim gets his haircut and develop photos in a hour all at the same time...and then shop for cheap groceries. Where else could one find such a multi-tasking store all wrapped up into a huge ball of cheapness? I almost always see someone I know when I go. They too seem a little bored, wandering around hoping to see someone they know as well. Wal-Mart is the "mall" of this town, not just a place of convenience. So, I guess Wal-Mart isn't so bad after all. It has become my sole shopping source here in the little town that time forgot. I just hope that they have those white-cheddar cheetos when I go back for a second round tonight!

Wyoming Re-Cap #1

I am beginning a "re-cap" series to my blog now as I have left out many important happening which have drastically shaped my current state of mind-life in Wyoming. I just took a little time looking back to all my past blog posts and realized that I compare my CA life to my WY life, a LOT. So for all you readers out there who were not a part of my WY experience, I feel like I should provide some insight into the core of my comparisons, that being life in Wyoming. I really should have started this blog when I moved to Wyoming in March of 2006. I will for the next few postings, attempt to capture all the defining moments which led me to where I am today. The first few post are ones that I wrote while living there, (copied and pasted from my myspace blog section) and the following ones will be written in the present day. It was one of the best experiences of my life so far. I thank my husband Tim for always knowing what is best for me even when I don't and for breaking me out of my mold. :) Love you babe!


Current mood: loved
(Written sometime in June of '07)

The Beauty of the Kindness of Strangers

On the evening of June 1, 2007 Tim and I were lucky enough to attend Norah Jones concert at one of the most beautiful amphitheatres, (Red Rocks in Colorado) in the world! Not only is this place breathtaking-we were seeing Norah who makes my love for music come alive! It was going to be a fabulous night, I could just feel it!


When we arrived 2 hours early, we joined the tailgating crowd in eating, drinking, and listening to Norah. We chatted with the other Norah-lovers happily waiting for the concert to begin. One couple in particular who were a little younger than my parents, took a special interest in talking with Tim and I. The husband was an orthopaedic surgeon for the United States army. He looked EXACTLY like Robert Dinero from the movie Meet the Parents and even had the same witty, humorous personality. It was really entertaining me. The wife also looked and acted so sweet like the mother on Meet the Parents. What a pair! They had a daughter who had just married and a son in college. They were Christians who seemed very active in their church. (The husband was giving a power-point presentaion on Medical Ethics from the Bible in the morning at their church.) They were not afraid to open up about their secret to a happy and lasting marriage as the conversation turned that way. (Tim and I often ask couples that have been married a long time AND have a healthy relationship their secret to making it last and being fufilled from their relationship) We truly value advice from these types of people who have gone before us. The husband and wife both had strong, passionate, and deep answers for our question. He said that his way of meeting his wife's needs was not just asking how her day was, but asking more specific questions like, " What was the most exciting part of your day" or " What was the most difficult part of your day?" These questions, he said, provided a deeper look into the mind of his wife and made her feel better understood which is an important need for us women as we all know. Another thing on the husband's end was what he called, " Servant-Leadership" where the husband is the strong leader, but in leading he is always serving the wife. (Sounds like my Tim-boy am I a lucky girl!) This couple had a deep connection, it was apparant within the first hour of meeting them. Time for the concert to begin, we all started hiking up the trail to the top of the theatre. " Meet us back at our cars after the concert for some more drinks", they said. " We'll party until traffic clears out!"


Norah was an angel! Her beautiful, soothing voice transported me to a state of contentment, relaxation, and giddiness that most people can only achieve with a dose of Valium!


As we hiked back down the huge slabs of red rocks to our car, we gazed out over Denver's city lights with the full moon overhead. Kissing passionately for that moment we felt like we were the two most lucky and in love people there ever were.


As we approached our suv, we saw our new friends already partying it up next to us at theirs. They offered us their drinks and asked us what we planned to do the following day. They told us we should come explore CO Springs where they live. We thought that was a great idea, we had been wanting to visit there! As Tim and I were discussing our hotel plans for the night, the couple went off for a minute alone to discuss something themselves. When they returned, the husband said, "Now we understand if you decline, but we would like to invite you to stay at our place tonight." Their friends piped in, " Ooohhh you guys are lucky! They're place is HUGE!" Tim and I were pleasantly surprised with their generous offer. We looked at each other taking in the fact that neither of us had any doubts about the situation, and both agreed to go. We were fully aware of the fact that in most parts of the country, this would never happen or be safe. We knew that this could be a potentially harmful situation to go into with such trustful hearts, but we both strongly and instinctually knew that this wouldn't be the case with this particular couple.


We followed the couple home about an hour and a half south from Morrison to Co Springs. They had a beautiful home as their friends had said. It was on a hill overlooking all of Co Springs. When we walked in, I got the feeling of being right at home feeling like I was at one of my best friend's parents house for the night. Safe, cared for and lucky. We had our own huge room with attached bathroom and living area with a terrace overlooking the city. It was truly a blessing! They showed us a few pictures of their kids and said they would see us in the morning after making sure we had everything we needed for the night. We were both awestruck. I couldn't believe we were staying in this beautiful home for the night of people we had just met hours earlier.


The next morning they offered us breakfast and supplied us with a map for our day of exploration. We exchanged business cards and thanked them profusely. We chatted for a moment about how nice it was of them to trust us in their home that night. They said that we had presented ourselves well to them and they felt comfortable and happy to make our stay easier. The wife then said, "I just believe that people should just be nice to each other and pay it forward, like the movie." How simple yet profound! And, what a way to experience the beauty of God's love from His people, watching over us wherever we travel to.


Now I truly know the meaning of why they call it "God's country" out here, exclusively.

Tourists in Our Own State!

On Friday, Tim took off work early so we could begin our final quest to explore some parts of California that we may have overlooked as possible places we might like to live. California is soooooo much bigger than I realized living in Sacramento most of my life. I think since I lived in a city that had what I perceived to be everything at the time, I never explored many other areas of the state as I did living in Wyoming. Growing up, we really only went to visit Grandma in San Jose and then went down to So Cal for the typical Disneyland/Newport and Laguna Beach vacation, (which was our favorite) but not much beyond that, (within Ca). I mean, of course we occasionally went to San Francisco, Yosemite three times, Lake Tahoe, Santa Cruz, Napa Valley and Monterey...but not much else beyond the major tourist spots. I still have never been to Big Sur, Hearst Castle, San Luis Obispo, camped ON the beach, climbed Half-Dome, explored the Northern Ca coast like Ukiah and Humbolt County where I'd say to the hippies, "No thanks, I pass on grass-everytime!" Just like "Focker" on Meet the Parents! :)... been to a real ghetto in LA... (ok so I don't want to really go to the ghetto and get shot!) but you get the picture. There is still a lot I would like to do in this state someday. So anywhoo- On Friday we explored some parts of Marin County, mainly the Petaluma area. Petaluma is cool because it is a smaller town, 100,000 people, has a fair amount of open space around it with country living, has a cute old-townie looking downtown area which is pretty small, and is only 45 minutes from the ocean and maybe 45 from SF as well. Oh and it has a Whole Foods. Major points there from me! We had dinner and walked around and took in the sights. It is very hilly which I like, (flat is too boring) and has lots of pretty vineyards around. Afterwards, we drove through Novato-very wealthy town where you have to have at least 2 million to buy a home, San Rafael...then over the Golden Gate Bridge which I think was only my second time driving over and first time with Tim. Unfortunately it was a very foggy evening so we couldn't really take in the sights of the bay and the city, actually we really couldn't see more than 10 feet in front of our car it was so thick! Oh well, so we drove through SF, Burlingame, over the bridge to Hayward, on to Pleasanton, then over some more hills into the central valley/aka: cow towns! :) We finally parked our fun-filled butts at our second home in Turlock for the night with my in-laws. :) Whew! What a day! It was pretty much 5 hours in the car, 3 exploring. It's our whole nomadic phase we are in now I guess. :) So overall we liked Petaluma, but it wasn't calling our name like Oregon is at this time. It still feels too, for lack of a better description, clausterphobic for me. My whole outlook has been swiveled around into a complete 360 change after living in the one state with the most open space. The town itself is smaller, (for CA) and had countryside surrounding it, but too soon after is city after city after city...and I just feel too lost anymore in such environments. It's as if I'll get swallowed up in the crazy city abyss and miss out on the real-ness of the earth, which is nature. The concrete jungle is a little rat-maze leading to nowhere. Just confusion. I'm taking my pink Nalgene bottle and heading for the hills! :)

The Confusion of a Gypsy Wife

I want to have a baby so bad it hurts. Literally. Every time Tim and I are out at a park, store, anywhere with live people, we see so many cute kids. All we talk about are how cute they are, mimic the funny things they say for the rest of the night, and practically stalk them as we just sit back and dream of the day when that will be our life. I sit there, choking back the tears, trying to look normal while inside I crumble. Last night Tim was sitting there, looking around the park and says, " All the people who are really having FUN here have kids...", with this longing look on his sweet face. As you can see, we really want some babies-pronto!
Now here's where the confusion comes- What about our gypsy lifestyle? What about our Nomadic living situations!??? Would this be too stressful for me to handle while preggers? What about not having a house yet? I wont be able to "nest", paint a nursery, hang pictures on the walls...We aren't even sure at this point on where exactly we are going to live next. Our lease is up here in the bay area on August 11 and I can't WAIT to leave here. I'm SO done with the city! DONE! I'm NEVER living in the city again! I need the country! I need the green, fragrant, rolling hills of open space! I need a house with acres, not a little box of a backyard. I want to hear birds and crickets at night, not traffic or the growling-(yes growling!) of some crazy bum at 2 am! ( We live in the middle of downtown-NEVER AGAIN!) Our next proposed move will most likely be to Oregon. We are so OVER California for now. My Wyoming friends were right, California IS ridiculous! The "sunny California" thing is a complete myth! I mean, it sure has so much to offer, but you have to put up with too much crap to live here. There are many beautiful spots, but there is more hot, dessert-like land in between. And I have a lot of friends here, but they're all too busy to ever do much with me. They all live so spread out and have jam-packed lives. TOO many people, traffic, not much open space, expensive houses, gas, fake people, a lot of CRAZY people. I'll bet you that if there was a study done of the geographical locations of people who are on Prozac, I bet you ten bucks most of them live in California. Want to know why? Because people here are TOO concerned with their outside appearance rather than their souls. It's that they let Hollywood-something of an illusion, be a model for their self-image. It is sad. It is sad that mothers buy their 18 year old daughters breast implants so that they can feel better about themselves. It is sad that parents don't spend much time with their kids because they commute 2 hours home from work and by the time they get home, the nanny has put them to bed. Ok I'll stop my CA-venting, and I know I shouldn't generalize ALL of Californians but that's the general feeling one would get when coming here. That's the "vibe" if you will. Just like the vibe in Wyoming is happy, outdoorsy, take off those heels and put on some Keens, have a granola bar type feel. And the vibe of Oregon is the same. We went up to visit our family up there in the beginning of this month and fell in love with it up there. It was as beautiful as a postcard! Everything was so green and fragrant I just have to be a part of it! People were so friendly and life was slower-paced. We went looking at houses with a real estate agent and found some possibilities for starter homes! We are both looking for jobs up there right now and hopefully will find something soon!
SO WOW I got just a little off track here! :) Guess I had something to SAY huh?!!! :)
Well, as for having a gypsy kid, maybe it's do-able. I mean, as long as I have one of those cool baby-sling things then all it really is, IS an extension of me right? And maybe I'll just have to paint a nursery for the second kid. Maybe for once, a second child in this world will have at least one advantage over their older sibling. "Well I had my own room when I was a baby" my little one will say. "Oh yeah well I lived in 3 different towns when I was a baby..." the older one will say...Oh I can see it now...:)

Breaking the Cycle of Insanity

Today I am going to quit my current job that I've only been at a month now. It is pure hell on earth. I am an Assistant Director at a K********* I already knew going into this job that the company itself doesn't have the best reputation but geeze I never expected what I have experienced. I was told going into the job that this center has had a lot of problems keeping staff and that my position has been vacant for almost a year. I thought I had the strength to go in there and help the situation-but all that is happening is that I have been coming home every night crying to my poor husband and becoming very depressed and anxious over it. Now I know why. Everybody at this center is unhappy, including the poor kids. Teachers are yelling, fighting with each other in front of the kids, teachers are constantly coming to me to tell on each other and ask that I solve their issues with each other like kids themselves, teachers blatantly disrespecting ME who has done nothing but try to make them happy, they even yell and talk so mean to the little kids as they have no healthy coping skills for their own anger. It is a disaster. I would never take any child of mine to a place such as this. People are selfish and rude. My co-director comes and goes from the center as she pleases, leaving me with the long hours and grunt work which is to be shared. Some of the parents are a mess as well. Complaining about things that are not in our control and asking us to do things that are against licensing policies. I have had to counsel many irate, furious parents and by doing so hopefully helping them to see how they are really doing their child a disservice by leaving them at daycare from 6:30am to 6:30pm. One day they will look back on their lives and regret not spending more time with their babies. I mean, you only get 1 year of each of your child's life to throughly enjoy their infancy! 1 YEAR-that flies by! That's IT! I can't believe some people! Asking ME for advice, (which is really common sense) about HOW TO RAISE THEIR kids when first of all I have no kids of my own yet. Sure I have my BA in Child Development, 4 years of teaching and I've been reading Parents Magazine since the tender age of 8 but still! That's all books, not the experience of raising my own yet. Here's an example- One mother comes in the other morning YELLING at me that she is so furious that her 7 month old boy is starting to scream and cry at her. She says he is learning it from the other babies and that it hurts HER feelings. She says that every time a baby cries, the teacher should take that one baby out of the room to calm down and then bring it back! HOLY CRAP BABIES CRY!!!!! What a newfound discovery! I calmly had to explain to her that this was a developmentally appropriate behavior for her child. It's his way of communicating to you when he is angry, uncomfortable, hungry, ect. She says that is hurts her feelings and that he should be PUNISHED! I told her that it is not right to even try to punish a 7 month old baby. I told her he would not understand and she would just make the situation worse. I also told her to realize that this is just the beginning. As he gets older the tantrums will start. And that is normal too. OMG!!!! Why oh why do some people have kids? WHY? To put them in the care of people who know what they are doing and then complain about it? WOW! SO that's right kids, 6 month old babies left for 12 hours away from the real mommy. I just couldn't take it anymore. I cannot be a part of it anymore. I tried and I cried. It's not happening. I feel like a failure. But you want to know the real failure? SELFISH people who decide that having a LEXUS is more important than staying home and raising their own children. I realize people HAVE to work, but leaving your BABY for 12 hours each day?!!!! I believe that this is the cause of the breakdowns of families in our society and the reason so many children are suffering. It is too sad to see. Goodbye messed up system.

My husband

I am madly in love with my stud husband and look forward to each day with him. Each day, the love he gives to me gets better and better, giving me the feeling that I will accomplish all of my wildest dreams in this life. The man rents me "PMS-girlie" movies, brings home bottles of wine for girls night, makes me laugh constantly and knows when I need to be cuddled. What more could I ask for?
I am so lucky to have found him and I am so excited to one day share in the joy of being parents together!

Music of my Heart

Well here we are now living in Concord, CA. It has been 2 months since we moved into our cute but ridiculously expensive apt. (try $1600 a MONTH to live here!) in the east bay area. After 2 long months of job hunting I finally got the position of the Assistant Director of a Knowledge Learning Corporation School. It will be great business management experience in a kid-friendly environment! What more could I ask for? It will be great! I start on Tuesday!
This morning I am finishing up some things like baking, wedding album creating, errands and packing some clothes for our Easter weekend in Turlock with my "country family!" I love it at my in-law's place. So relaxing and easygoing!
I just put on some Corinne Bailey Rae to sing to and all of a sudden had an urge to express what I feel when I listen to her. See I bought the album when we were living close to my sister in Irvine. I hear Corinne and instantly I am transported back to Irvine, taking in the salty ocean air, knowing that Laguna Beach is just a 20 min drive away. Knowing that I can walk over to my sister's condo and we can go to Fashion Island together or a quick trip to Target. Or maybe just laze by her pool, reveling in the awesome fact that we are granted the opportunity to prance around like celebrities while our loving husbands are working away to provide for us. We will probably never be given that carefree feeling back again. She's moving up to Washington, I now have a job again, kids will come soon after and so on. Life is speeding up again for me. I am so grateful for the past 9 month whirlwind of not having to work. Although moving 3 times in that period, traveling constantly, and being at home alone a lot during the days was at times painfully lonley and drove me crazy-this time has also given me times that probably will never happen again until my retirement one day. By then no one will want to look at my wrinkley sister and I as we try to strut our once hot bunz at Laguna Beach. The hot guy playing volleyball wont come help us set up our beach umbrella, he'll laugh at the crazy outdated getups we are wearing which we think are hot. But we will still strut, depends and all, knowing that once we were!