Current mood: hopeful
You don't even KNOW how excited I am to go back and visit Laramie this week. The place where my Timmy and I spent our first year of marriage bliss. Our first home, so many road trips, so many happy friends who were truly content, a stress-free lifestyle, SNOW, adventures, re-defining who I was through many new experiences, "dancing to a different beat" ... I do miss it. When I first moved out there, sure it took a while for the CA girl in me to adjust, but when I did-I finally discovered how much more there is to the ways in which we CHOOSE to live this life we are given. It is so baffling to me the drastic differences in the many ways of life there are to live in our country. It is as if CA, (especially SO Cal) and Wyoming are two different countries. And obviously the differences only start there. Like night and day. How could a simple thing like geography influence such drastic sociological differences? Hmmmm... I think I am the most indecisive person I know right now. I question as to why I am soooooo thrilled to go back there if I was sooooo ready to move back here when I lived there. Are we ever truly content with what we have at the present moment? I told Tim tonight that if when we are in Colorado and Wyoming this week I feel like that is our place could we ever move back? I think he passed out cold. :)
Dec. 19
So our trip to Laramie and Ft. Collins was absolutely fabulous! As we flew over the rockies, I saw stars for the first time in 7 months. No not stupid celebrities, celestial beauties! :) The vast, wide open night sky was so peaceful and a sense of calm washed over me that I have not felt since I've been back there. As we landed in Denver, I had a strange feeling that we were FINALLY HOME again after 7 long months in some weird, foreign country. (Well we practically are, the OC is weird!) Laramie was the last place we have experienced the feeling of "home". Ever since we've been back in CA, our life has not been stable. The sparkling snow glistened in the moonlight and lightly dusted everything in sight. My first breath of fresh air was exhilarating!
The next morning we drove up to Laramie through the almost-blizzard like conditions. The howling wind and blowing snow danced around us in a whirlwind of excitement! The buffalos even seemed to shoot us their welcome back smiles! :) I wanted to jump out of our suv and run through the wide, open spaces and revel in the freedom I felt!
When we arrived in Laramie around lunch time, I dropped Tim off at the office and went to go find some lunch. I ended up at my old hangout-the Coal Creek coffee shop. As I walked in a familiar voice called my name, " Laura-where you been?" I couldn't believe it! It was Guillermo, my 70+, Italian buddy that used to chat with me here when I first moved to Laramie and needed the coffee shop for internet. There he was, still coming to his same spot everyday at 1:00, as usual. Of course. :) What a neat feeling to roll into town after being gone 7 months and see an old friend immediately! We sat and caught up on our lives for about 2 hours. He is hilarious and speaks of life through such expressive undertones full of depth and wisdom. I feel like I am reading "Tuesdays With Morrie" all over again. :) We part ways and he says to remember that life is always suprising and one must just be able to go with the flow to fully enjoy and understand it. "See you again," he says and he fades into the snow.
I was so happy to be able to spend time throughout the week with so many of our friends. I didn't realize how many good friends we have over there. Everyone was doing well and was so happy. I even arrived just in time to see my old kiddos perform in their annual "Peppermint Parade" - the Christmas program at the Open School that I used to teach at. All of my old students remembered me and it was so good to see their little happy faces again. They grow up so fast at that age!
In being back in the small town life, I realized more and more how much I missed it and how happy it made me. Too bad I had to come back to CA to fully appreciate it. It usually takes learning through experience for me to fully solidify things for myself though. And to me it's the best way. I do see us moving back there someday though. To Colorado that is, Boulder maybe. For now, we'll have to give CA our best shot, to see if we can be as happy and carefree here, to meet some more friends who aren't caught up in the materialism that sucks the genuine-ness right out of the people in our state, that drains them of true contentment and happiness. We'll see...
